Day 5

Well today is day 5 of my Chantix trial. So far so good, I think. I'm still smoking but definitely not as much and usually only half a cigarette at a time. Today I feel a little like i'm on the edge of another panic attack.. I had one on the morning of day 2.. it only lasted about 5 minutes and i'm not even sure it was because of the medicine. Although I had never had one before. I think i'm feeling this way because I read another Chanitx blog and it was definitely all negative. The guy talked about out of body experiences and wild dreams, and thoughts of suicide. He said he would wake up with business cards in his pocket of which he didn't remember getting, txts from people he didn't remember meeting and half eatin sandwiches he didn't remember buying. I tell you if I get like that just one time I am definitely quitting. So far the jist of my Chanitx experience has been weird dreams. Nothing really bad or of the nightmare variety.. just weird.. which isn't really unusual for me with or without Chantix. Anyway, I will be back in a few days.. I read the website and it says you should not be smoking by day 7... we will see!

Chanitx Day 1

I just took my very first 1/2 pill of Chantix! I am excited, and nervous. I am so ready to quit smoking. I'm a little concerned about the side effects, mostly the mood swings or feeling of depression. Hopefully I will be one of those that doesn't have any side effects but, we shall see! Technically, this isn't day 1.. I should just call it Chantix: The start of my journey! I am going to try to blog about my experiences as best as I can. So far... because I just took one down the hatch, i'm not feeling anything yet. I did read on the label "May cause drowsiness".. which is why I waited so late to take one.. My husband will be home shortly and if need be he can help with the kids. My birthday is in exactly 27 days so I hope to be completely smoke free by then. I will be 31, and I want to improve my lifestyle.. for myself and my kids. I want to be a positive example for them because I would NEVER want them to start smoking. So why should I do something I wouldn't want anyone else to do. Anyway, I am so ready to end this terrible chapter in my life! Wish me luck!... and I will probably need some prayers as well... and for my husband too, that I don't harm him. ;)