Day 5

Well today is day 5 of my Chantix trial. So far so good, I think. I'm still smoking but definitely not as much and usually only half a cigarette at a time. Today I feel a little like i'm on the edge of another panic attack.. I had one on the morning of day 2.. it only lasted about 5 minutes and i'm not even sure it was because of the medicine. Although I had never had one before. I think i'm feeling this way because I read another Chanitx blog and it was definitely all negative. The guy talked about out of body experiences and wild dreams, and thoughts of suicide. He said he would wake up with business cards in his pocket of which he didn't remember getting, txts from people he didn't remember meeting and half eatin sandwiches he didn't remember buying. I tell you if I get like that just one time I am definitely quitting. So far the jist of my Chanitx experience has been weird dreams. Nothing really bad or of the nightmare variety.. just weird.. which isn't really unusual for me with or without Chantix. Anyway, I will be back in a few days.. I read the website and it says you should not be smoking by day 7... we will see!

Chanitx Day 1

I just took my very first 1/2 pill of Chantix! I am excited, and nervous. I am so ready to quit smoking. I'm a little concerned about the side effects, mostly the mood swings or feeling of depression. Hopefully I will be one of those that doesn't have any side effects but, we shall see! Technically, this isn't day 1.. I should just call it Chantix: The start of my journey! I am going to try to blog about my experiences as best as I can. So far... because I just took one down the hatch, i'm not feeling anything yet. I did read on the label "May cause drowsiness".. which is why I waited so late to take one.. My husband will be home shortly and if need be he can help with the kids. My birthday is in exactly 27 days so I hope to be completely smoke free by then. I will be 31, and I want to improve my lifestyle.. for myself and my kids. I want to be a positive example for them because I would NEVER want them to start smoking. So why should I do something I wouldn't want anyone else to do. Anyway, I am so ready to end this terrible chapter in my life! Wish me luck!... and I will probably need some prayers as well... and for my husband too, that I don't harm him. ;)

Well, I haven't been back here since April. I honestly forgot I even started this blog thing. Life has been slow and busy at the same time. Today was really busy. Yesterday was slow, didn't do anything at all but stay at home except when I went to a few stores in the morning to find Emileigh's school supplies which I came home unsuccessful. Today was very busy, I left to go pick my little sister Cayli, my cellphone battery died, had to go visit my step mother to use her phone, went to visit my grandma and we had a nice time. Then we went to Target, Staples, Walmart, Old Navy, and Shoe Carnival, then I took my little sister home. We went swimming for about an hour and left. Now I am home resting... and writing this blog which is getting boring so I am leaving now!

My baby boy has been sick...

for 4 days now. He has been running a fever, on average, of about 104.3. I took him to the doctor yesterday morning and they said it was a virus. I am seriously ready for him to get well. He has been so ill and whiny. My daughter is on spring break right now. Not much of a fun one, since we cant go anyway but we are trying to make the best of it. She has her best friend Kelly coming over at 2 so she is excited. They have been best friends since kindergarten, I think its sweet.

I am tired because Eli has been getting up alot at night and I have been giving him Tylenol and Motrin. He is napping right now and I am super happy about this because I have been able to get alot of cleaning done and now I am able to write my very first blog! OK I have more to do so I will blog again later.